I get the strangest ideas, get drunk
Leave angels in tears turning flames into painful affairs
Sonow Im lying here draining beers
I cant explain its weird got me thinking damn maybe Im scared
Coz Id like someone to listen to but I hate having to tell them
Im sorry for not missing you
Feeling cold and this is difficult
Guess love differs your periphial view sort of like sniffing glue
It was cool I know you hoped for us
Didnt mind that I smoked so much
I saw the signs, you opened up, gave me time
And everything was fine till I f*cked up and broke your trust
Buteven so you never showed disgust
Its like I find a surprise and all I wanted was to drown in her eyes
And lay surrounded by the sound of the skies
But I guss I never tried so for all of those lies
I apologise
My intent was not to fail you all
See Im just trying to change my stars
Got me locked at these crossroads thinking which way should I go
Which way should I go
Anticipating what the next days bringing
Try to prepare with your heartbeat racing
Its kind of likewhen Im writing my flows
Thinking which way should I go
Which wayshould I go
Guess Ive proven to be a handful
Coz its like every other day another scandal
Had a career but now they saying that its cancelled
Aint that a whole lot of shit to be playing for some uncleared samples?
Quite more than I can stand for
But then again I kind of like your damn show coz my shit went gold
Another shipment sold and all the other kids enrolled
Coz what they donow I did before
And some of them did know
Those who didnt
Now they heard it from you
So youre the fool bringing my words into school
Youre just a tool i can use gaining success
Now everyday is another I dont give a f*ck-fest
I just like the truth /there really aint that much left
And I dont see how me talking about my life can make you upset
Thats too much stress you need to relax
And look around maybe jesus is back
Go find him
Chourse
Sometimes I wish that no one on this earth could stand me
If I deserved to be loved I wouldnt hurt my family
Fill my body with drugs while giving birth to panic
Its like Im just another worthless addict
Shit,I aint even working at it
Though I know, nobodys perfect
I feel Ive lost my right to ask for a purpose
It seems I just make it worse and search beneath the surface
And try to find some light up in this circus
But Im nervous all I see is the mistakes I made
Cut me open like a razor blade
And in these motherf*cking crazy days feel my faith uncovered
Pray the doctors will save my brother
Think about the promises people make each other
But life interferes
Got to do right by them that cared
Ive been a burden for them to bear
So I know I cant end it here
