Benji, Benji
Yo, for twenty-four hours
I got eighty quid
I'm washing dishes in a sink, thinkin' this is it
Take a step back to work out what my time costs
Now take one look at my wrist, now I reply "lots"
So don't ever get it twisted, oh man, I meant I'm twisted
Sea sick of board games, was never good at battleships
When you say you're chef and white, is that true, bro?
Claim you're in the kitchen with a knife, you got no clue though
And, bro, making videos has changed my life
Felt after pinch myself twice just to sleep at night
When I quit my old job, I wasn't eating right
And it wasn't from the stress, I been eating out of bags of rice
True shit, even my bank was feelin' negative
I had to boost myself up to feel the benefit
Father stretched his hand out, and for that I'm blessed
No longer life of Pablo, pack the bags and move to west
I was sick of acting stupid, had to find a meaning
Hopped up on the central line, two stops
And now I'm new to Ealing
It's hard to find your feet when you've been down
But manifest your dreams, I'm never hearing what they say now
But when you deep it, tomorrow isn't real
Stop waiting on the future, seize the days, secure that deal
'Cause one day you will wake and see the end for what it truly is
I'd rather leave a legacy, enjoy the things it brings
If I lose my mind, make sure I never forget
Should I fight the time to let it get me upset?
And always stay patient on things that aren't sure
Can't lie on comfort on things I been taught
And I can't come feeling feelings I fought
I'd rather be ignored
From last year, I didn't recognize myself
I lost a friend, was unexpected
Hurts me more, I didn't help
And when I got that news I started sinking
I did everything to stop myself from thinking
I even turned to other things to help to sleep in
But when your life's online, the pressure starts to creep in
And people think they know you, but I didn't know myself
Spence the cameras on, let's smile and put your feelings on a shelf
Yeah, I was frozen on my bed, phone was ringing
Won't believe the thoughts been circling my head
So I thought I'd write it down so you can hear this
People come and go, but time will heal your lowest feelings
If I lose my mind, make sure I never forget
Should I fight the time to let it get me upset?
And always stay patient on things that aren't sure
Can't lie on comfort on things I been taught
And I can't come feeling feelings I fought
I'd rather be ignored
