Mono / Stereo

Текст песни Joshudrew - Mono / Stereo

Mono stereo that's the way it always goes
You got your own story
We had highs
And we had lows
Too bad we're far away separated
That's okay
We will tell our different stories in 21 days
Mono stereo that's the way it always goes
You got your own story
We had highs
And we had lows
Too bad we're far away separated
That's okay
We will tell our different stories in 21 days

You messaged me asking if I had time to call tonight
There are some things you wanna say
It's been 2 days since we talked how we used to do baby
And I just started to work full time
Because who's gonna pay your student loan debts
But besides that
I can't make it too late
I've been working 2 weeks straight
And I'm still not used to the times
I hope that call won't turn into a fight
And that call is at 8 pm
And for me that's a bad time
But
I do it because you're my all

Mono stereo that's the way it always goes
You got your own story
We had highs
And we had lows
Too bad we're far away separated
That's okay
We will tell our different stories in 21 days
Mono stereo that's the way it always goes
You got your own story
We had highs
And we had lows
Too bad we're far away separated
That's okay
We will tell our different stories in 21 days

The whole day I was looking at the clock because I'm so scared
Shaky legs and hurtful thoughts
My mind just needs to rest

It's still afternoon and I don't know what to do
And my feelings are all messed up

Oh I'm Impatiently waiting if I'm worthy enough
To have you for the rest of my life

I had trouble
Leave my mind
I can't believe you would rebuttal
Picking bones
She thought that she was clever
But she wasn't subtle
Now I'm cold
Thought she was my lover but she was too bold
I don't know how it caught my heart
But now it's taking hold

Mono stereo you've been breaking all my bones
You been
You been acting shady when you're holding out "at home"
My head been feeling doubtful and I'm missing all my clothes
While you're out and living parties leaving me up all alone
I'm holding out, but I feel like I'm running I'm out of seconds
I feel loud, but I'm smoking and puffing has got me reckless
I'm in doubt living
Loving is different in our perspective
Then I think I think I think (yeah I think I think I think)
Oh I think

8 pm that night we called
She told everything I needed to know
She told me we need to think about
What we're looking for in a relationship
My answer was: "love"
She kept making rules while she broke my trust
She said it all with a poker face and was tearing up at the end
I hate the way she brought it up
That guy is not me
Can't you see?
He's not waiting for you like I do
He hasn't been in the situations that we've been through
Oh my love
You're just hurting me

Mono stereo that's the way it always goes
You got your own story
We had highs
And we had lows
Too bad we're far away separated
That's okay
We will tell our different stories in 21 days
Mono stereo that's the way it always goes
You got your own story
We had highs
And we had lows
Too bad we're far away separated
That's okay
We will tell our different stories in 21 days

So we hung up and I fell on my knees
I couldn't feel my hands and anxiety started getting over me
I was overwhelmed with sadness
And no else picked up the damn phone when I was calling them
I was dumbfounded

Laying on the ground and my tears hit the floor
I felt that my heart didn't work anymore
Don't you see this is unfair
All of this is unfair
Screaming in pain
I was broken inside
I thought that I had you for the rest of my life
Yes so now I'm just surviving 21 days without you

I got guidance from Boaz
And my sister self reflected
And Benji hates it when I'm sad and depressed
And I'm crying in Virgil's arms
But the pain won't go away

Jacky pulled a gray hair out my head
Because I'm so stressed and I need rest
And I need your love
Oh and I still need your love

Oh and I don't know if I am preparing for the fight or surrendering
Oh It's hard to find a reason why I should stay
It's always been like this and you won't change

21 days have gone by
The couple of weeks I've been writing it all down
I poured my heart into it
When I returned to the writing
I realized how bad you've treated me 2 years long

Today's the day to finally tell you that
But if you want to change I would forgive you
And we can start over
But you had something else in mind

Mono stereo that's the way it always goes
You got your own stories
We had highs and we had lows
Now today is the day
And I am on my way
We can finally tell our stories after 21 days
Mono stereo that's the way it always goes
You got your own stories we had highs
And we had lows
We know all will fall apart
We will say goodbyes at the place we used to love

So now I'm walking to the rendezvous
Where we used to hang
After chilling at your place
So we could light a cigarette

Mom and dad didn't know
And we didn't care
But I'm walking to the place while my future is at stake
This morning was a hell and I woke up fucking nervous
I didn't eat this morning and I still had to throw up
My sister asked me if I really want to do this
But it's better now than later
Because I can't fucking wait no more

And oh it hurts every step that I took I had battle within myself
And I still don't know how I managed
But I'm finally here waiting for your presence
So mono stereo that's the way it always goes
I told my story and I said that I don't feel your love
And mono stereo that's the way it always goes
After that you told me you don't see a future in us

I was dumbstruck
Because these words were something I was afraid of
I took breath and said "well then it ends"
We said our goodbyes and I went home again
After crying in your arms and slowly losing it all
Now I'm home, and I'm bursting out in tears
My mother held me down and told me that I'm special
A son made by love that wants to give all his love
She said I shouldn't be afraid of the future holds because
Emanuel
God is with us

Emanuel