Honesty

Текст песни shirobeats - Honesty

Can I be honest?
Listen, I promised myself ten years ago I'd be in a different position than this
And I'm pissed, it seems there's a memo I missed about #makingit
Isn't this Perfect? Making the money, losing the time
To make the pride of what I make in my mind
Leave a paycheck less important there remains a sort of pain in my chest
I become obsessed, wishing years of my life were mine

I'm a smiling face and an open mind
An empty vessel you can vent to until you unwind
Because that is just the way that I've been designed
By the life I was chosen to lead
I'm a jack of all trades and a master of none
I look back now wonder what it is that I've done
To make me proud of who it is that I've become
When the mirror isn't mirroring me

I'm at the tipping point and it's terrifying me
Lighting in me a fire that I don't have time to deal with
I've been anointed; taking the emotional hit
By being a safety net, not searching for myths
Like the one about being who you want to be
And always trying to follow your dreams? Jeez
It rings in such a hollow way than how it used to
And seeing that piece of me die is such a goddamn tragedy

I'm a smiling face and an open mind
An empty vessel you can vent to until you unwind
Because that is just the way that I've been designed
By the life I was chosen to lead
I'm a jack of all trades and a master of none
I look back now wonder what it is that I've done
To make me proud of who it is that I've become
When the mirror isn't mirroring me

I'm a passing glance you're soon to forget
An whisper that you never can catch what was said
With a life I could have lead if I'd made the bet
And tried to finally believe in me
I'm a piece of art in a gallery
The painter couldn't find a reason to ever complete
So what the whole world thinks is what I'll seem
What purpose, for you, will I be?