Cast aside, paint me on the wall
Living in my dreams, false sense of hope, I think I'm gonna fall
Mess collides anxious on the floor
Watching you sink into me, I feel like I have been here before
Water dripping down my throat, I choke, you gloat
At depression, you say it's always been your friend
But you pretend with the side effects, triple vision all bent
I never got the messages that you say you sent
Large debt, small head, you say, I left
Repetition, can't see for everything you blame me
What's this? More lies, my love, your theft
You wanna bring up the facts of something that I couldn't be
There's a swell building up inside my chest
They say it is just an illness, they say it's for the best
Living a lie, no, I didn't try
My mental state is a joke
It's just a condition, I can't make decisions
Say my life's not fact, just fiction
You know it's these issues, you know that I miss you
I don't wanna live that life, man
Panic attacks, can't breathe just shaking
Tunnel vision, this is how I live on the daily
Manic, maybe, suicide, hate me
What do you know about me when I'm breaking?
Playing with hearts didn't mean to get that far
Trying to drown in sex, but I'm tripping over bars
Xanax yah, losing uh
All I do now is dissociate
Make me up from something worth saving
Break me 'til I'm just worth hating
Chemical overdose
Drowning under losing all hope
A spiral that never dies, prescription ghost
You take control and I've lost the choice
Of where I could have been
Without you
Cast aside, paint me on the wall
Living in my dreams, false sense of hope, I think I'm gonna fall
Mess collides anxious on the floor
Watching you sink into me, I feel like I have been here before
Cast aside, paint me on the wall
Living in my dreams, false sense of hope, I think I'm gonna fall
Mess collides anxious on the floor
Watching you sink into me, I feel like I have been here before
Sink down, we drown
From pain in sorrow, breakdown
Sink down, we drown
Full panic, feel manic, calm down
I'm spiralling from quarantine
I'm drinking red mixed with a bean
Hit an 80 g 'cause I'ma fiend
Had the oxy on me, you ain't know it b
And I met your parents when I was high as fuck
Then you played with death and I had enough
Fuck your suicide, you cut me up
And I know you wanna see me hit the buck
I ain't 'bout that shit, but I got a fix
But I'm tryna quit 'cause I ain't 'bouta kick
I ain't 'bouta bitch, that's a fucking mess
'Cause I been through trauma, that's a fucking bet
So hit a lick, then I hit a sip
Then I hit a bitch, but I ain't hurt her, bet
I been locked inside for a couple weeks
And my phone been ringing, it's the devil b
Sink down, we drown
From pain in sorrow, breakdown
Sink down, we drown
Full panic, feel manic, calm down
Cast aside, paint me on the wall
Living in my dreams, false sense of hope, I think I'm gonna fall
Mess collides anxious on the floor
Watching you sink into me, I feel like I have been here before
Cast aside, paint me on the wall
Living in my dreams, false sense of hope, I think I'm gonna fall
Mess collides anxious on the floor
Watching you sink into me, I feel like I have been here before