Honesty

Текст песни Our Mirage - Honesty

The summer of 2003, after the mania and during the depression
Like, I tried to do, I mean I was still in school
But I tried to do some part-time work and it wasn't happening
It was too overwhelming
'Cause that's one of the major things with depression
That I've experienced is just this really
Crippling sense of being overwhelmed
By things that aren't even my responsibility
Like I remember driving with my mom places
And we'd be going to the grocery store or something
And we'd drive by a construction site
And suddenly I would just feel crushed by the
Thought of having to build this construction site
It's like, why? It's not even my responsibility
And so, actually having a responsibility was out of the question
So that summer for sure, I could not work
But after the hospitalization following the suicide attempt
From that point forward, I've been able to work pretty consistently
But the upside of being very upfront with
My bosses or my supervisors has been that
You know, 'cause there have been times where I've had to say
"Hey, I need to manage some hypomania"
So, I'm gonna take this day off because I have to take this medication
And because of this medication, I won't be able to work this day
So you know, kinda like managing any other medical issue
Do this and that, so
And then depression, a lot of times I'll tell my employers
"I'm kind of having a tough time right now"
It doesn't usually impair my ability to work
But it affects me enough that I have to
Be honest with them about what's going on