Very introverted with a lack of confidence
I hardly do believe when people give me compliments
I hate my pessimism
With a passion
It is shit
The thoughts just haunt my mind
They eat away at all my bliss
I try and I try
But I always seem too miss
I'm thinking well shit
It's as good as it can get
But fuck it ain't enough
It drive me crazy bruh
I just pray I am the stone
Turning diamond in the rough
Sorry lord it's hard
Just having faith it ain't enough
If life is such a blessing
Why I am not having fun
Every acts a sin
Feeling doomed as I began
Am I here too loose or win
The answers I am trying to get
My prayers so empty
And the feelings so tempting
Death and freedom
Life and bondage
These decisions so heavy
I'm feeling so buried
Not talking cemetery
Dead alive
Dead inside
Man this feelings so scary
I done fucking made too many mistakes
And I'm feelin karma
Taking me
Too my very grave
A lot too stomach
Knots and curls
What be served on my plate
I'm like lord
Take me away if I can't
Just can't go be great
I'd rather that than more bad decisions
I'm lashing out
Abusing substance
Cause my hope and faith
Has has hit a drought
Like what's the purpose
Why you bring me here
And let me do wrong
Don't understand it
If I knew better
If I knew better
Hook)
I know I did wrong
But is this really it
Will I ever b the same
Feeling happiness within
I feel doomed a punishment
That ain't nobody gonna get
My health fading
Doctors playing
Damn life is a such bitch
Life is such a bitch
Fuck
Aye
Aye grandmomma
Life is such a bitch man
Ta Py
Sorry I treat you poorly
All this hate inside my soul
Just be
Spewing out
And too be honest
It goes towards anybody around
Why I stay stuck inside the room
And bearly come out the house
Fuck
I'm just thinking
Tryna figure it out
How am I gone move on
All the days pass me by
And I never thought that I
Would wanna leave here and fly
Before my time
But see mind is really hoarding a lot
Yea I caused pain
To people
I ain't feeling right
Even though it's back then
It still sits inside my mind
I know actions cause reactions
And I prolly skewed perspectives
Of the innocent and happy
And I always ask why
Maybe I am really damaged
So I drift inside my past
See where I have gained these manners
Huh
I'm going nuts like mr.planters
So stuck inside this swirl
3 6 9
It's a pattern
Hook)
I know I did wrong
But is this really it
Will I ever b the same
Feeling happiness within
I feel doomed a punishment
That ain't nobody gonna get
My health fading
Doctors playing
Damn life is a such bitch
